Pain keeps coming

Deep inside
I don't feel light

I appear calm outside
where my pain is out of sight

Pulled like a string
bound in the relationship ring

Unable to stretch further
I desperately need a breather

I don't want anyone
Just me, myself and no one

Atleast not an intruder
who makes me a pain bearer

Why am I the sufferer
It is making me a cribber

All the time
Why is the pain mine?


 

Shopaholic me

I am a shopaholic by birth. Atleast, this is what I love to call myself. I believe shopping is the best therapy. Shop till you drop and cure all your problems is my motto. I spend more than half or rather my entire salary in shopping. I am such a spend thrift. But you know what, bad time comes for every one and I have seen the worst of my times. I shopped using my Dad’s money even when I was not working for a year. Now, I have to write a different blog or may be many different blogs to tell you why I was not working. That’s a different story altogether. To add to my jobless woes, I got married. I actually, really and desperately wanted to marry my long time sweet heart. But just few days before marriage, I was so very nervous. I seriously wanted to run away. However the tale of my marriage blues is apt for another blog. Let me come to the story of my shopping spree.

On a pleasant week day, my friends and I decided to leave early from office and indulge ourselves in shopping. We went to this mall nearby called the Raghuleela mall in Vashi. It is a shopping mall with branded stores as well as small non branded stores which sell typical clothes at reasonable prices. It gives the feel of street shopping inside a mall. You get all these funky stuffs under one roof. I stepped to a kurti shop with my friend. To add to my excitement, I saw a galore of kurtis with all kinds of colours and prints. I wanted to pick not one, not two but many of them. Alas, I was reminded that I am married and cannot spend or waste (as my husband would call it) all my money in shopping. Hesitantly, I picked just a single pair of kurti and leggings and walked out of the store. On the way back home, I became nostalgic of my life as a spinster. I wanted to go back to that life and be a free bird again. There were none to seek permission from and none to stop me from doing anything whatsoever. However, I loved my husband and today, life is what I have chosen. Anyway, back home I immediately put on my new kurti and discovered that it was a little loose. Then my friend Dipti’s advice came to my mind. She had told that it would shrink after one wash. I smiled and neatly kept it in my cupboard. After some days, I wore it to work and many of my colleagues liked it. I was satisfied and set it aside to wear after some days pass by. Yesterday, I had a haircut and wanted to wear something cute. My eyes instantaneously searched for the same polka dotted green kurti. I thought that will look the prettiest. I felt sudden love for my green kurti and put it on without any hesitance. Ofcourse, it did match my haircut as I had imagined.

AWA PREPARATION

AWA is the essay section of the GMAT. It stands for Analytical writing assessment. It judges a student’s thinking ability and the way he is able to communicate it. There are two types of questions asked here – one is analysis of argument and other is analysis of issue. Analysis of issue asks you to give your opinion on the presented issue. You can either support it or go against it. Topics would generally be on business or political issues. It is good to use known facts in your essay. You have to show in your writing that you understand both sides of the issue and then support one. It tests how well balanced you are in your writing. Analysis of an argument questions offers an argument on an issue. You are required to analyze the argument given from the issue. You have to decide how well the argument is reasoned. You can either strengthen the argument or weaken it. You need to find out mistakes or support it along with evidence. Each of this part is of 30 minutes. You are scored from 1 to 6 in this part. A score above 5 is considered a good score. You receive your score along with the GMAT score. Your essay is graded by a human and also by a computerized grader. If both the graders do not agree, your essay is graded by another human.

AWA is the most ignored section of the GMAT. It is taken very casually by most of the students. Aspirants concentrate on verbal and aptitude part but end up completely overlooking the AWA section which is also important. Generally, it is assumed that if one has a decent knowledge of the English language, AWA is not a big deal for him. It certainly helps if you are well versed with English or if you are good at writing. However, you cannot afford to ignore this part. You need to know certain tactics and strategies to master the AWA. There is a method of preparation for every section.

Now, one method to prepare for AWA is to practice sample essays and previous GMAT essays. This has to be done anyway. In addition to this, I would suggest to read newspapers and magazines daily. There are review columns appearing in the editorial section of the newspaper. It is very important to read them thoroughly and write an issue essay and an argument essay based on it. You should use proper structure in your essays and your paragraphs must be connected. For instance, your idea stated in the last paragraph must be used to begin the next paragraph so that the link is formed. If you practice this daily along with sample essays, you will definitely score above 5.5 in your AWA section. You can at least devote twice a week towards your AWA section. You should have practiced more than 30 essays before the day of your GMAT. A score of 4 out of 6 is considered a decent score and obviously you should be able to score that much at the minimum.

I come back!

I come back!

While it’s raining

And I am sipping

A cup of tea

He and me

This is how I come back

After a long gap

To my favorite world

Oh my Lord

It looks so serene

As I feel I am lost in the divine

I am surrounded by green

And yes I am so keen

To grab this opportunity

Of writing poetry

Yes again

With or without pain

My Mom

Sitting with palms on cheeks

I started feeling meek

Weak and low in confidence

Missing someone’s presence

 

Someone who mattered so much

who cared with a loving touch

I missed her

more and more

The farther she went

It got easy to vent

Messed up was I

Only who cared was she

She was my sun shine

Without her I felt like a vine

I never told her

whenever she was near

that how much I cared

and even more I loved

Never did I show any emotion

Though she had the notion

I will wait for her arrival

Till then will be busy in revival

Doing Nothing!

Facebook, gmail and nothing
combined with lot of sleeping

is a great way of doing nothing
be it day or night or even early morning

Sitting, watching and thinking
of doing great deeds with good planning

Ideating one after other
and narrating each to mother

Moving legs up and down
Recalling events which are bygone

Dreaming about a bright future
Guessing ways for its nurture

may solve no purpose
but enough to arose

Doing nothing is itself a great thing
as you get a world tour with your wing

Wanna feel high

I want to feel high
Please don't ask me why

I want to see serenity
everywhere in the city

Sky merging with earth
is what I want to feel in this birth

Freedom from all tension
is what I wanted to mention

Blood oozing out
is my dislike with no doubt

Peace in darkness
and in melancholic happiness

is what I have finally found
without  being bound

Boon is in the glass
Euphoria for a lass

That is my destination
in the form of meditation!